Imagine feeling like nitroglycerin on a bumpy road. After decades of that feeling, I realized my problem; I was on the wrong road.
I made the correction over 40 years ago. Now, I am a retired professional Dominatrix spinning fantasies for a chosen few. In chat, I indulge intellectual discussions on erotic topics associated with BDSM and Femdom. Not "play", but talk about techniques, relationship options, toys, clothing....the things that create atmosphere and sensation.
I block those who do not begin with polite conversation: be formal to avoid emotional trauma.
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